I have spent this weekend (they start on Fridays aww yeaaaah) either lazing in bed or working out. And working out was a much smaller proportion. I made cookies on Friday, which was a mistake since I had nobody to give them to - I ended up eating 10 - no joke - before 1pm. And they weren't even that good! Butterscotch and chocolate chip cookies, mmm, but way too cakey. Lower the baking soda I think.
ANYWAY. With a snow day on Thursday, I basically had a half-day of work, at home, and therefore feel very rested. I won't say I am looking forward to the week ahead, but besides waking up in the morning I am not dreading the week ahead. What does that week entail? Party planning (volunteers), phone calls galore, and...I honestly don't know what else. After the chaos of October/November/December, January and (more so) February has been incredibly slow. I prefer to be busy.
I think I need to explain why I was lying in bed the majority of two days. BECAUSE...I am obsessed. With the future. And right now the future demands adventure - and not the Americorps kind. Originally, this new adventure was Most Definitely For Sure The Peace Corps. Tell me what to do and I will do it! Send me where you want and I will go (except Eastern Europe, sorry)!
But then I read an essay on Peace Corps and foreign policy, and another on how outdated Peace Corps is, and both include how ineffective and/or inefficient it is. And then I realized, do I want to do this kind of work for two years? Do I want to be part of this organization for two years?
After 5+ hours of interning abroad research, I found some other possibilities and reconciled with Peace Corps - but with higher standards. I would think more seriously about what they invite me to do and really consider whether I would take it or not. I already have a preferred job - NGO development - and a preferred place - West Africa - and that is not good. Plus, I have conflicted feelings about NGOs!
SIGH. I feel that this is an incoherent rambling, but for all those who have made it to the end, I only wrote it for the journaling hours on my timesheet. Sucker!!
Love you.
whatever you choose to do, zoe, you will bring light and whimsy and brilliance... don't worry, the right opportunity will reveal itself!
ReplyDeleteWhat, you have a timesheet? And on that timesheet you include journaling hours? Does it also include "bake things that will make Michael salivate" (also known as "bake things and know that Michael will assume that I am baking things and therefore salivate"). At least you ramble about meaningful things.
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